Where I Belong - R.V.Elliott

Chapter 51 

"You sure that was a good idea?" Nate asked picking up what was left of my phone. 

Shrugging my shoulders I ran a hand through my hair. "Probably wasn't the best idea but it felt damn good and now I can relax without my phone going off every 20 seconds". 

Taking a seat beside me he placed his hand on my knee. "They'll be really worried about you Ava. I know what my brothers like he won't stop until he finds you and your dad, he'll have everyone on high alert if you don't phone him back". 

"Why do you care Nate? You're the one that told me I need to get out before I get myself killed". I snapped immediately regretting it. Nate wasn't to blame for this and he didn't need to stand here and put up with my shit. 

"Not like this Ava. Do you really want your mom stressing out and worrying about you when she's so close to having her baby? Your little brother or sister?". 

Hearing those words my stomach dropped and I felt nothing but guilt. He was right I couldn't put my mom through this. 

"I don't want to stress her out but if I call her back my dad will order me to phone Blaze and get him to come for me. I'm sick of people telling me what to do". 

"Why don't you send them a text? Say you're safe and with a friend and you'll be back with Blaze tomorrow?" Nate asked slipping his phone into my lap. 

"Do you want me to go back to Blaze?" I blurted out. I really need to think things through before I say them out loud. 

"Just send the text Ava I'll come back and get my phone in a bit I have some work to take care of" He answered completely ignoring my question. 

The more time I spent with Nate I realised he wasn't that much different from Blaze. As Nate reached the bedroom door my question stopped him in his 

tracks. 

"Do you ever speak to him?" I asked watching as his full body tensed. I was taking that as a no but I wanted to know what was going on between them. "Nate?" I whispered as he turned around to face me. 

"We don't speak I send him a text every now and then to make sure he's doing okay. I make sure he's got cash and I also wire money into his account every month. He's my little brother and regardless of what he says I still care for him and look out for him". 

"Don't you miss having him around?" I asked probably over stepping the mark but I wanted to see how far I could get without being shut down. 

"I don't want to talk about my relationship with my brother Ava. Now if you don't mind I have work to do". 

"Okay" I sighed as the bedroom door slammed shut behind him. 

I think I hit a nerve. 

I had sat for at least an hour twirling Nate's phone in my hand. I hadn't sent a message to my mom yet and I have no idea what was holding me back. Would they all be that worried? Would my dad go that far as to send out a message to all the charters? Feeling the vibration against my hand Nate's phone fell onto the bed face up. Catching a glimpse of the text my heart dropped. 

'Cheers Nate I owe you one. Keep her there until morning' 

Why the hell was my dad texting Nate? And then it hit me. Seeing red I clenched his phone tightly in my hand and jumped of the bed. So he wasn't letting me stay here because he cares about me he was keeping me here because my dad asked him to. What was Nate's part in all of this? Hearing a knock at the door I spun around my eyes falling into slits. How could he do this to me? What was he getting out of it? 

"Ava are you okay? Can I come in?" He asked 

Storming towards the door I pulled it open and pushed past him. "I'm leaving I have to go" I said rushing towards the kitchen so I could retrieve my purse. "Ava what's happened? Did you contact your dad?" He asked walking towards me. Clenching my fists I grit my teeth, he was still lying to me. 

"I didn't have to contact my dad because you already did" I snapped watching his eyes snap to my hand. Oh I forgot I still had his phone it would be a shame if I just so happened to smash it off his face. 

"Ava look.."- 

"No Nate you look" I said cutting him off "Why did you tell my dad I was here? You're the one that wants me to be happy and try and get out of it all yet your running back to my dad telling him everything. What else have you told him?" I asked curious as to how much my dad actually knew. 

"He came to me Ava because you fucking told him you had met me" He snapped the tone in his voice making me jump. "I don't believe in what your dad or the club do but I respect your old man". 

"You're just like the rest of them" I whispered shaking my head. Gripping my bag tightly I about turned and walked towards the door. "I think it's safe to say I won't be seeing you again. My head might be all over the place Nate but I liked you I really liked you". 

"That was the first and only time I have been in contact with your dad for a long time. He called me and I told him I hadn't seen you in months but when I overheard the sobs coming from your mom I couldn't not tell him you were here and you were safe. I don't know how he got my number Ava heck I don't know why he would think you would be with me but he's your dad and he cares about you more than you will ever know". 

Not being able to help myself I burst into a fit of laughter. "You sound just like Blaze. You're dad really cares for you. Blah, blah, blah!! No what my dad cares about is my moms happiness. He has her back now and that's all that matters. My mom and his club I'm just the mistake that happened 24 years ago". Feeling my bottom lip start to quiver I sunk my teeth into it and blinked away my tears. Why do I always cry over this shit? You would think by now I'd be over it. Feeling my shoulders sag I wiped at my cheeks. There was no point in standing here arguing with Nate when it wasn't his fault and it wouldn't solve anything. 

"I'm sorry I told your dad where you were but know I did it for your mom". 

"I-I know" I stuttered "I'm sorry for shouting at you but please don't lie to me Nate". Releasing my grip on his phone it started vibrating in my hand. Not being able to help myself I peeked at who was calling. "Here" I whispered hating that I was jealous because a girl was calling him. I had no right to be jealous Nate 

and I were friends. 

Taking his phone he looked at the caller ID before hitting the decline button and pushing it into his front pocket. 

"Please don't go Ava at least stay tonight" He sighed rubbing at his eyes before taking a seat on the edge of the couch, he looked exhausted. Slowly walking towards him I placed my hands on his shoulders. "You're very tense Nate is everything okay?" I asked rubbing my hands into his shoulders. Taking a hold of my hand he squeezed it tightly. "Work related or girl related?" I asked as I continued to give him a massage. 

"Hmm" he groaned causing a smile to grace my lips. "That good?" I laughed pressing a little harder. Grabbing a hold of my hands a squeal fell from my lips as he pulled me hard enough making me to fall into his lap. 

"I really am sorry I told your dad" He whispered running his finger tips over my bare leg. "I understand why you did it Nate and I don't blame you I was just angry. He knows where I am now so he can stop worrying". 

"How long are you here for?" He asked resting his arm against my leg. "Hopefully just a couple of more days. I can't go home until it's safe" I snorted rolling my eyes. "Are you here on business?". 

"Yeah I like to check in on Danielle from time to time make sure she's doing okay. I head home tomorrow night". He yawned "I can't wait to sleep in my own 

bed I've not been home in 2 weeks". 

"Must be hard being the boss" I snickered pinching him in the side. Moving off his lap I lay back against the couch and rested my legs over his."How do I feel so relaxed with you Nate?" I sighed throwing my arm over my eyes. "Maybe in another life you would be my boyfriend and we'd get married and have lots of babies" I laughed to myself. Moving my hand I opened my eyes and gasped with how close he was. 

"Why not in the life Ava? Why can't we give it a shot now?" He asked 

"Are you being serious?" I asked pushing my self up onto my elbows. I liked Nate I got on with him really well but was now the right time to finally get into a 

proper relationship. A relationship with a guy that in my eyes was perfect and deserves so much better than me. 

"I don't deserve better than you Ava. I wish you could see you threw my eyes". He whispered as he leaned forward and pecked my lips. 

"I didn't mean to say that out loud" I said giving him a small smile. "Would you be ready for that?" I whispered knowing that if he wanted a relationship with me it came with a lot of baggage. 

"I've wanted you since I first saw you sitting in that wine bar. Something inside me snapped Ava and ever since that day I can't get you out of my head and as cheesy as that sounds it's true. I've not felt like this in a long time and I think it's time I went after what I want and believe me baby I always get what I want" 

Moving towards me he cupped my cheek in his hand "The question is baby are you ready?". He whispered his lips hovering over mine. My heart was hammering in my chest with how close he was to me. 

Was I really ready for this? 

"You're not answering me babe and that's worrying" He grinned knocking me out of my thoughts. 

"I want to Nate...-" 

"Why do I feel that there's a but coming" He sighed pulling away from me. "Ava I want you and only you. What are you afraid of?" He asked. 

"I'm not afraid Nate it's just complicated" I said moving so I could stand up. Matching my movements he grabbed a hold of my hands. "What's complicated about it babe? Does this have something to do with my brother? Does he have that much of a hold over you that you can't date anyone else?". 

"This has nothing to do with Blaze. I was never in a relationship with him we slept together once and he does not have a hold over me" Pulling my hands from his I crossed them over my chest. "I can't believe you just said that". 

Chuckling he ran both hands through his hair "I'm asking you to be with me Ava it's a simple question yes or no you either want to be with me or you don't". Walking towards the mini bar in the corner of the room he grabbed a bottle of scotch and a glass. "Bottoms up" He grinned downing the liquid in his glass. 

Rolling my eyes I made my way to him. Taking the bottle and the glass from him I placed them onto the counter and took both his hands in mine. 

"I want to Nate but being with me puts you in danger. Look at me right now I'm here because it's to dangerous for me to go home. I can't do my job I can't live my life because I have people after me". 

"Do you want to be with me?" He asked his eyes looking straight into mine. 

"I do but..-" 

"Yes or no" He grit out cutting me off. 

"Yes" I whispered 

"Good" He winked before his lips crashed to mine. 

Blinking my eyes open I realised I couldn't move Nate was wrapped around my body like a vine and I couldn't stop the smile that was plastered across my face. Agreeing to be with him might cause a lot of conflict but right now I didn't care I'd worry about it later. 

"Morning beautiful" He whispered rolling over onto his back. "Sleep well?". I'd be lying if I said I didn't I slept like a baby. Yawning I sat up and stretched my arms "I've not slept like that in a long time" I grinned my eyes falling onto his naked chest. 

Sinking my teeth into my bottom lip I swallowed hard. How was it possible to have a body like Nate's? He wasn't lying when he told me everyone was little compared to him. He was huge everywhere. Dropping my gaze further my breath caught in my throat when I noticed he was very excited this morning. Averting my gaze quickly I felt the heat rush to my cheeks. Yeah he was definitely huge everywhere. Hearing him chuckle I knew I had been caught red handed which only made my cheeks flush more. 

"That's cute" He chuckled placing his hands behind his head. 

"Stop laughing at me" I pouted covering my face with my hands. I was female and it's hard not to look when it's basically staring you in the face. 

"I love how innocent you are baby, you hungry?" 

Right on cue my stomach rumbled causing Nate to laugh out loud. "I'm taking that as a yes. Let's order some room service". Just as he got out of bed his phone started ringing. When did he put it on loud and I thought he hated Trey Songz? Raising my eyebrows at him I couldn't help but smile. "I thought my taste in music was disturbing?" I smirked as 'Touchin' lovin' blared from his phone. Grabbing his phone from his jeans pocket he glanced at it before looking at me. 

"It's for you" Scratching the back of his head he accepted the call putting it on loud speaker. 

"Nate put my daughter on the phone please". 

Mom?! 

"It's on speaker mom". 

"Ava what the hell are you playing at? Do you have any idea.." Quickly grabbing Nate's phone I turned it off speaker and made my way into the bathroom. 

"You could have gotten killed or raped anything could have happened to you and you didn't care. And what the hell is this thing with Nate. Is Blaze out of the picture now? Ava that will cause a war".. 

"Mom take a breath" I sighed taking a seat on the edge of the bath. 

"Don't tell me to take a breath Ava Maria..-" 

"Mom" I yelled cutting her off "Just stop it okay. Stop fussing every time I go somewhere without Blaze. He's not my boyfriend and he's definitely not my keeper and as for Nate he has nothing to do with this or the club so just keep him out of it". Taking a deep breath I waited for her reply. 

"You're playing a very dangerous game Ava and..-" 

"I'm not playing any games mom" I sighed rubbing at my temples. "Listen I have-.." 

"Don't you dare hang up this phone Ava do you hear me. You have been nothing but trouble since you came here and you're acting like an immature spoilt brat" She hissed my breath catching in my throat by her harsh words. "Grow up and step into the real world. You don't get to fuck around with a biker and agree to become his old lady and then change your mind. You have put this club through hell and I won't stand for it anymore-.." 

"But he can fuck anyone he wants?" I roared "I won't be with someone that sticks it in every female he see's. I won't just turn a blind eye and have everyone laughing behind my back because he can't keep it in his pants. Do you know what you won't have to stand for it anymore because I'm not coming home". Throwing the phone off the wall I screamed at the top of my lungs before I burst into tears. Feeling arms circle my waist I buried my head into his chest and cried like a baby. 

Nate held me tightly in his arms the whole time I had my mini breakdown. I had no idea how long we had sat on the bathroom floor but I couldn't for the life of me find the energy to move. 

"I think I b-broke your phone" I croaked rubbing at my now sore eyes. 

"Don't worry about that baby and you didn't break it it's been going off for the last half hour" Kissing the top of my head his arms got that little bit tighter around my waist. 

It has? 

شا 

"I'm sorry you had to witness my little episode" I whispered playing with the bottom of my shirt. How could my mom say that to me? Did I really act like a spoilt brat? Did she mean what she said or did she say it out of anger? Taking a deep breath I got out of Nate's lap and got to my feet. 

"I'm done with them Nate I can't take anymore of it. My own mother thinks everything is my fault heck she even called me out because apparently I fucked with a biker. My own mom" I snapped feeling more angry than upset. "I can't go back there Nate I can't do it" I sobbed. Getting to his feet he wrapped me up in his arms like a child and held me tightly against him. "You don't have to Ava I thought you moved out of the clubhouse?" He asked carrying me through to the 

bedroom. 

"I did but my house isn't safe anymore. I don't know who decorated it or who even owns it so my dad thought it was best I didn't live in it until they found out everything" Missing out the part where I killed a guy and got attacked in it but he didn't need to know that just now. 

Cursing he sat on the edge of the bed running both hands through his hair. What was up with him?