Where I Belong - R.V.Elliott

Chapter 49 

"You drive me insane" He whispered softly against my lips. "I can't stop thinking about you ever since the first day I laid eyes on you all those years ago". With his hands holding my cheeks I could do nothing but look into his eyes. "What's holding you back sweets?". 

"Holding me back?" I questioned not sure I understood where he was going with this. 

"From being my old lady? Letting me claim you. God I love touching you" He groaned his hands falling from my cheeks and running down my arms. 

"Claim me? That's taking it a little too far don't you think?" I wasn't an animal! 

"Not in my lifestyle darlin' we claim what's ours and protect what's ours. Your dad claimed your mom when she was sixteen and look at them now." 

"They weren't together for years" I snorted "I don't think this lifestyle is for me Blaze". 

"You've been living it for the past few months and the time before you moved back home. This is where you belong Ava, it's in your blood it always will be". 

"I don't know what I want Blaze and I haven't for a while now but I don't want to talk about it anymore because I don't want to argue with you and we both know that's what will happen. So let's just enjoy this and talk about something else". 

"I hate that you're not mine" He sighed falling back against the grass. 

"Everyone thinks I am" I whispered chewing on the inside of my lip once I caught the look he was giving me. "Both Lexi and Chantelle already think I'm your old lady especially more so now because you packed my case" I shrugged playing with the strands of grass under my finger tips. 

"It's not the girls I need to convince they're not the one with dicks" Slipping his hand over mine he tugged on it "I'm not gonna push it any further babe but there will be a time I'll give up chasing you. No matter how much it pains me I am a man after all". 

"And of course it all comes down to sex" I snapped pulling my hand from his and getting to my feet. 

"That's not what I meant" Pulling on my hand he pulled me so my back was against his chest. "I'm getting older sweets and there will come a time where I want to 

settle down and have kids". 

"I'm only 24" I whispered "I've just started my career and your talking about kids god Blaze I don't even know what I want for tea tonight. You can't drop a bomb on me like that and expect me to be okay with it" Breathing deeply I stalked away from him, I felt as though I couldn't breath like someone had pulled the air from my lungs. 

"I'm a man that knows what he wants and that's you. It always has been and it always will be I'm just telling you how it is". 

"Can you please take me back?" I asked feeling light headed all of a sudden. 

"You look pale darlin', sit down" Taking my hand he sat down first and then pulled me into his lap "I'm sorry sweets I know what I said is a lot to take in but I had to get it 

out". 

"I'm sorry I freaked out its just I'm not used to how things work. As you know already I've never done the boyfriend thing and you're over here talking about getting married and having kids. It's a lot to think about and I need some time to my self so I can figure out what I want". 

"Let's just leave it at that, we'll head back because if we don't Lexi will have my balls. I swear she's just like one of the guys". 

Giggling I pushed myself of him and got to my feet. "Is she gay?" I questioned as we walked towards his bike. 

"She's a greedy bitch she likes both" Handing me my helmet I got on behind him wrapping my arms around his waist. "I like her and Chantelle I wish the girls back home were like those two" I yelled so he could hear me over the engine. 

"Give me 5 minutes and I'll be ready to go" Lexi yelled as soon as I stepped foot inside the clubhouse. 

"Come see me before you go" Blaze whispered as he ran his fingers over the bare skin of my back before making his way over to the guys. Taking a seat on one of the stools at the bar I grinned when Lexi placed a beer in front of me. 

"Thanks Lexi". 

Lifting my beer I was about to take a drink when I felt a presence beside me. "You feeling any better kid?" Marko 

"Yeah" I smiled taking a sip of my beer. I was feeling better and I had Blaze to thank for that. Having a little quiet time was exactly what I needed. 

"Good darlin' and if anyone says anything to you again then you tell me. Regardless if its male or female I won't have you disrespected in my club". Placing his hand on my shoulder he gave it a gentle squeeze. Why did I have a feeling he was up to something or he wanted something. "You going out with Lexi and Chantelle?" He asked 

"Yes! Is that a problem?" I frowned 

"Naw darlin' but do me a favour and put a smile on that ones face". He nodded his head over to the corner of the room. Following his movement I noticed Blaze sitting on his own. "I need him to have his head on straight and right now it's else where. Think you could fix that for me?" 

"Eh I'll try" I shrugged wondering what he was expecting me to do. 

"Good lass" He grinned kissing the top of my head before disappearing. 

"Ready to go?" Lexi beamed snapping me out of my thoughts. Grinning at her I nodded my head excitedly. I hadn't been out in so long so I was really looking forward to 

it. 

"I just have to speak to Blaze first" I said following him with my eyes as he disappeared down the hall. 

"Make it a quickie" She winked causing a blush to spread over my cheeks. Shaking my head I followed after him. Coming to a stop in front of the room we were sharing I peeked through the crack to see him sitting on the edge of the bed with his head in his hands. I had never seen him this way before and something deep inside me didn't like it. Slipping through the gap I walked over to him, his head snapping up at my intrusion. Not thinking about my next move I pushed my self into his lap taking him by surprise. 

"I don't like seeing you like this" I whispered my arms automatically going around his neck. This felt right in every way, me in his lap with my arms around his neck! I'd be lying if I said it didn't make me feel good. Was I being stupid for not taking a chance on him? 

"Well this is different" he grinned his arms circling around my waist. 

"What's wrong?" I asked 

"Just need some time to think darlin' that's all. Aren't you going to be late?" He asked and that was my hint that he didn't want to talk about what ever he needed to 

think about. Sighing I moved my arms and slid my hands down his chest. 

"She thinks we're having a quickie can't go back out to early" I laughed getting my self out of his lap before he got any ideas. Checking my reflection in the mirror I grabbed the tube of lip gloss from my top pocket. Watching him watch me I pouted my lips and applied some. 

"You plan on getting laid tonight?" He was behind me so fast a gasp fell from my lips. With his erection stabbing me in the back I wasn't the one that was thinking about getting laid. 

"No but I think you are" I sighed as his hands found there way to my hips pinning me against him. "What are you trying to do to me?" I whispered feeling the familiar feeling start to build in my stomach. 

"I should be asking you the same thing. Do you know how sexy you look right now?" He groaned rotating his hips, his erection rubbing against my bum. 

"O-okay you need to stop and I need to leave" I stuttered side stepping out of his grasp. Chuckling he slapped his hand against my ass "Better go before I lock that door and have my way with you". That was all it took for me to get out of there. 

"Well he put some color onto your cheeks" Lexi grinned as I followed her out the club house. Rolling my eyes I jumped into her passenger seat "It's not the only cheeks he put color on" I mumbled as she erupted into a fit of laughter. 

"It's going to be a good night" She grinned speeding out the parking lot. 

"So what's really going on with you and Blaze?" Lexi asked handing me a glass of wine. "And don't say nothing because the sexual tension between you is through the roof and very noticeable". 

"Really?" I asked sinking my teeth into my bottom lip a habit I don't think I'll ever be rid of. 

"Really" Chantelle added as she joined us in the kitchen "Sorry I'm late but I did bring shots" She grinned placing them on the counter. 

"What kind did you..." 

"Oh no you don't" Lexi interrupted placing three shot glasses in front of us. "We want to know what's going on between you and Blaze". 

"Yeah we want details" Chantelle smirked filling up our shot glasses with straight vodka. 

"I thought you said you brought shots?" I frowned looking at the liquid in front of me. I wasn't a drinker and drinking straight vodka probably wouldn't be the smartest thing to do. 

"Any thing is classed as a shot if you put it in a shot glass. Bottoms up" Lexi winked downing the shot in one go. 

Oh lord help me! 

"Bottoms up" Bringing the shot glass to my mouth I quickly downed it. "Not doing that again" I said scrunching my face up at the after taste that was left in my mouth. 

"So..." Chantelle grinned placing her elbows on the table. 

"I don't really know what's going on with us" I sighed telling them the truth. "Apparently he's wanted me since he first laid eyes on me, I was fifteen". 

"And why the hell are you two not together?" Lexi asked pouring me another shot this time it was a red colored one. "Why ain't you his old lady? We've all seen the way he looks at you". 

"Blaze took my virginity when I came back to find my dad. I trusted him and we kind of built a friendly relationship. He asked me to be his old lady and I said yes. Long story short I caught him balls deep in someone else" Taking the shot that was in front of my I licked my lips. Hm cherry flavoured. 

"I think he's been trying to win my trust back but I'm not so sure it's there yet. Don't get me wrong it feels right when I'm with him but there's always this little voice in the back of my head telling me not to go there. I don't know about you but I'm not the type of girl to turn a blind eye". 

"I would kill Cooper if he ever did that to me" Chantelle muttered "You just keep doing what your doing that asshole doesn't deserve you". 

"There's more, I kind of got involved with his brother" I winced pouring another shot. I was going to need about ten after this conversation. 

"Blaze has a brother?" Lexi asked 

"What?" Chantelle gasped 

Great they didn't know! 

Nodding my head I downed the other shot and quickly refilled it. How could they not have known? They've knew Blaze a lot longer than I have but if I hadn't of met Nate on my own I would never have known either. 

"You learn something new everyday" Lexi shrugged taking a sip of her wine. "Is he hot?" She asked wiggling her eyebrows. "Who's better in the sack?". 

"Wait, rewind this a little" Chantelle said "How old are you?". What did my age have to do with this? 

"Twenty four, why?" I frowned 

"You said Blaze took your virginity when you came looking for you dad. How old were you when you found him again?" 

"Twenty three" I sighed already knowing what she was going to say. "I wasn't interested in guys back in high school or college. I wanted to get my degree so I studied my ass off, you could say I didn't have time for boys". 

"Wow" Lexi breathed "How did you manage to keep them off you? Your a hot little thing" She winked causing me to laugh. 

"Does Blaze know?" Chantelle asked filling up our glasses. Shaking my head no I picked up my wine glass. "Maybe that's what's holding you back" She whispered. 

"I don't know but I do know I don't want to talk about it anymore and you have to promise me you won't say anything to him. Ive not done anything with Nate other than share a kiss but you both know what Blaze is like and if he hears about it from someone else I have no idea how he will handle it. Promise me it won't leave this room". 

"You need to watch what your doing Ava especially in this circle of people. How we live is completely different from everyone else. Your playing a very dangerous game and I say this because I like you figure out what you want before it's too late" Chantelle gave me a small grin as she squeezed my shoulder. 

"Enough talking more drinking" Lexi grinned pushing another shot towards me. 

"You guys- you guys are so nice can I take you home with me?" I slurred placing my head on my hand. 

"Yay" Chantelle yelled slipping her arm around my shoulder. "That would be so much fun". 

"You two are wasted and I am so dead" Lexi groaned. Smiling at her I lifted the shot that was in front of me and offered it to her. "No thanks" She declined. Shrugging my shoulders I grinned before downing the shot. 

"Why are you two such lightweights?" She asked causing Chantelle and I to laugh. Everything seemed so much funnier when your drunk. "You need to lighten up and stop being a party pooper...Hey I want more shots" Chantelle yelled slamming her hand against the bar. 

"Me too" I yelled waving at the bar tender to get his attention. "Lex please lighten up and have some shots. You wanted me to come out tonight and you've barely touched a drop here. Stop worrying about the state we're in and join us, pretty please?" I asked sticking out my bottom lip. 

Rolling her eyes she grabbed one of the shots the bar tender had just poured. "Here's to the ear chewing we're about to receive" She winked knocking back her shot. What was she talking about? Looking at her I followed her gaze to catch Blaze and a few other bikers Cooper included walk through the crowd and straight towards 

the back of the club. 

Well damn.. 

Sipping my drink I held onto the bar and tried to pull myself up right so I could sit straight. Yeah those vodka shots weren't a good idea at the start of the night. 

"What's back there?" I asked curiosity getting the better of me. 

"Club business now help me get drunk by drinking this" Lexi smirked pushing the clear shot towards me. It wasn't until I noticed the lime and salt that I knew what it was. After taking the tequila shot it was like it hit the bottom of my stomach and was trying to make its way back up. Scrambling of the chair I pushed past Lexi and ran to find the toilet. Catching sight of the exit sign I ran towards the door, not even five seconds later I was bent over throwing my guts up at the back of the club. Leaning my hand against the wall for support I jumped out my skin when I felt a hand on my lower back. Wiping the back of my mouth I pushed the hand of my back so I could turn around, I didn't recognise the man standing behind me. 

"Just helping a little lady out" He smirked 

"Thanks" I faked smiled. 

"Shouldn't be out-.." 

"Well what do we have here?" Another guy piped up his eyes raking over my body before he smacked the first guy on the shoulder. "She's a hot little thing ain't she and it seems she's out here all alone".