Where I Belong - R.V.Elliott

Chapter 36 

"Why did you bring me here Blaze?" 

"Because I wanted too". 

Yeah because that's an answer right enough. "I know you didn't want to go to the clubhouse and I wasn't taking you to a hotel so I brought you here. Its safer here". 

"Okay" I whispered 

"How's your face?" 

"Fine" I shrugged placing my feet on the ground before standing up. "Are you sure its okay for me to have your bed? I could sleep on the couch it doesn't bother me". For some reason I still couldn't look at him. 

"Still looks swollen. You sure it's healing properly?" He asked 

"Don't know, I'll find out in a couple of weeks. I'm really tired so I'm going to go to bed". 

"Some of the club members thought you deserved it. Saying speaking to Franko like that was disrespectful". Maybe I did deserve it I guess running my mouth didn't sit well with him. "Probably did deserve it" I shrugged. "What?" He spat making my head snap up as I caught his movement. Taking a hold of my hand he dragged me to the bathroom in his bedroom only stopping when we were in front of the mirror. "What are you doing?" I sighed finding it hard to look at my reflection. Yes the bruising was fading but it was still horrible to look at. 

"Don't ever let me here you say that again" He growled running his fingers gently over my cheek. "Franko was out of line for ever laying a finger on you. No one said anything I lied but why would you say you deserved it? If I had said that to you yesterday you would have ripped my balls off. Where's that Ava went to?". 

"Doesn't matter anymore. Nothing matters anymore" 

"Sweets-.." 

"I'm sorry for how I acted tonight. It was uncalled for and rest assure it won't happen again. Can I go to bed now?" I didn't want to talk anymore I just wanted to crawl into bed and forget everything for a while. He didn't say anything else he just moved to the side so I could get by. 

As the sun began to rise I swung my legs over the bed and got up. I hadn't been to sleep yet, my mind wouldn't let me. I still felt ashamed for how I acted last night. I practically put it on a plate for him and he refused point blank to touch me I didn't get it. I had no idea what had came over me, I wanted away from it all. Moving here had changed me, I was happy back home in Cali. Well happy until...getting rid of those thoughts I grabbed the jumper that was hanging on the door of the bathroom and pulled it over my head. Quietly opening his bedroom door I tip toed through the living room and into the kitchen trying not to wake him. Grabbing a mug from the draining bored I put water in the kettle and waited for it to boil. Emptying two scoops of coffee into the mug I searched through the fridge for milk only to come up empty handed. Hearing the click of the kettle I poured some water into my mug, giving Blaze another glance before I stepped outside. Sitting down on his front step I held my cup in two hands quietly watching the world go by. The area Blaze lived in was quiet and it kind of surprised me. I was expecting more of a rougher neighborhood. Hearing the giggle I couldn't help but smile when I noticed the little girl across the street chasing her little brother around the garden. What it would be like to be a child again. Having no worries, no problems. 

"You're up early" Came his rough voice. Jumping slightly I shrugged my shoulders keeping my attention on the little girl. "Damn Ava did you get any sleep at all?" He asked as he stood in front of me blocking my view. "Hate to say this darlin' but you look like shit". 

"Haven't slept yet-Hey make your own" I sighed as he took my coffee from me. "You need to sleep sweets and this" he said raising the cup "Won't help you" lifting the cup to his lips he made a face before forcing it down his throat "Fuck that's rank. Seriously Ava you need to sleep" Coming to sit beside me he poured my coffee onto the grass before throwing his arm around my shoulders. Leaning forward I placed my head on my knees the feel of him playing with my hair had my eyes fluttering closed. "I shouldn't have came back here" I whispered "I don't like this person I'm turning into which is why I'm going to look for an apartment today maybe a couple of 

towns over". 

"Or you could have my house. Its not like I live in it". 

"Thanks but no thanks. I need to get my own space away from it all and that's what I plan on doing. I need some me time, away from everyone. Sort my head out and get my life back on track. Heck I remember when my only worry was getting my degree, now look at me" I laughed 

"There's nothing wrong with a little change sweets. Sometimes change is a good thing" Letting his arm fall he perched his elbows onto his knees "About last night-.." 

"Please don't" I cringed cutting him off. I didn't want to talk about last night..ever. "I was just going to say your stripper name should be sweets". I couldn't help the small laugh that fell from my lips. Turning my head so I could look at him I noticed the smirk on his face "I can't believe I tried to dance on a pole" I groaned covering my face with my hand. Hearing him laugh I couldn't stop my own from erupting "Why did you let me get up there?". 

"If I recall I tried to stop you but just for the record you'd make a fine ass stripper" Standing he stretched his arms above his head a yawn escaping his mouth "You hungry? Because I'm starving". Nodding my head yes I grabbed his hand and pulled myself up not realising how close it brought us. No matter the shit that happened between us the tension between us never seemed to fade. The slight tingles I got in the pit of my stomach or the way my breath hitched with the way he looked at me. I couldn't brake through our stare and by the looks of it neither could he. "We shouldn't" he groaned at the same time "We can't" slipped past my lips. "But why..-" "Do we want to" I finished for him. "Its better we don't" I whispered finally looking away from him. "Better for who?" He challenged grabbing my face softly so I would look at him. "Its better for the both of us" I said turning and making my way inside. Sleeping with him would only make things worse. No matter how much I said I didn't want him my heart betrayed me every time. 

"You have no food he-.." 

"You said you loved me" Cutting me off he closed the door behind him. This was the very conversation I wanted to avoid. I told him I loved him not meaning to say it out loud. He got me so wound up it slipped past my lips. "You give me the impression you can't stand to be in the same room as me. Did you mean it?". I had no words, I didn't know what to say. For the first time ever I didn't have a come back didnt have an answer. So I did what I normally do these days I ran. Feeling the pressure of his hands on my hips he spun me around and locked his lips onto my neck. "You can't run from me Ava because I'll always be the one chasing you. In case you've forgot darlin' I know you, know you better than you think I do. I know what you like, I know when your sad, I know how to make you laugh. I know when you sink those little teeth into your bottom lip your either nervous, thinking or turned on" He whispered bringing his hand up to free my lip "I know how to make your little body quiver, I know how to put you over the edge. How those sexy legs shake just as your about to-.." 

"Stop it" I said my voice barely a whisper "Please just stop it". 

"Its the truth sweets and you know it". Was it the truth? Did my body only feel like this when I was around him? Was it because he was the only person I had been with 

sexually? "What if its not? What if all of what you just said is because you're the only person I've slept with". Catching the look of surprise and maybe confusion on his face his eyebrows dropped like they always did when he was thinking. "How come I can't rhyme of anything about you? I don't really know you Blaze and you won't let me". 

"Thought you were seeing someone?". Rolling my eyes I shook my head "What does that have to do with anything I've just said? You seem to know all of these things about me yet I didn't even know your real name". And this is the part where we would usually argue but not today. I didn't want a fight with him I just wanted answers. To have a normal conversation before I walked out. "You said you've only slept with me. Surely pretty boys dying to tap your fine ass". Pushing him of I put some distance between us "And that right there is why we fight. Why do you have to say stuff like that? Not everything revolves around sex. Can't a guy actually be interested in me for me instead of wanting to tap my fine ass as you so nicely put it". 

"I'm just being straight with you darlin'. If he ain't trying then he must be gay". 

"And is that what you've been doing all this time, trying? Working your way in so you could get into my panties? In case you've forgot you succeed" I huffed folding my arms over my chest. "I care about you Ava. You might not think it but I do. If it was just your pussy I wanted I'd have had it plenty of times by now and of course last night since you practically begged me-.." 

"I didn't beg you for anything" I snapped clenching my teeth together "I got drunk I was horny and you were there. I would have done the same if it were anyone else". 

"Bullshit Ava, you and me both know you wouldn't have acted the way you did with me last night with anyone else. That's why you like to be around me babe you get to be yourself". 

"I'm not doing this" Turning my back on him I headed for the bedroom not realising he was right behind me. "Truth hurts darlin' but that's exactly what it is the truth. You want me Ava just as much as I want you, nobody will ever make you feel the way I do and you know it. Give in to that temptation darlin' stop fighting it and just let it happen". 

"I told you I wasn't doing this". How he had managed to back me into a corner I will never know. I wanted to hate myself because he was right. My body was on high alert, I wanted to feel I wanted to forget. "Take me home now". 

Backing away from me a laugh fell from his lips "We'll see how much longer you can resist me. You think I don't know you want nothing more than for me to haul your 

ass onto that bed and fuck you until you're screaming my name. How your squeezing your thighs together because the ache between them is becoming to much. How those little cheeks are rosey because your flushed"